06-NOV-24
Just like I said in this mondays blog post, if I won't make a concrete plan, I will fail this challenge. Well guess what happened. Yesterday I didn't have school nor work, so I spend the day gaming, watching youtube and I logged in back to twitter in the evening. I was really bummed out about it but today I started seeing it more as a learning opportuinity, if taht makes sense. I don't have to be perfect, I just need to be consistent in my effort. Today is better, but at the same time I'm spending most of the day at school.
01-NOV-24
This Ｎｏｖｅｍｂｅｒ I'm doing a challenge called Ｎｏｖｅｍｂｅｒ in which I try to survive every day of Ｎｏｖｅｍｂｅｒ
In all seriousness though I am doing a challenge. I am giving up modern internet for a month. That means no instagram, no twitter, no tumblr,
no browsing reddit (I still can access it though, since it became one of the main sources of knowledge on the internet, unfortunately), and no
youtube binging.
I take it as a prerequisite to a dopamine detox I want to do in the second half of this month. It should take about two weeks, during which I'll
also avoid gaming and binge watching anime an tv shows. This is all according to a plan laid out by Dr. K. I really hope to get my motivation back.
So dopamine detox is one of the reasons why I do this, but the other is that simply social media makes me *feel bad*. The constant hate and division of
opinions, the rage baiting and the trash AI content. I just need a break from it all.
I already started avoiding social media at the start of the week. The only thing I miss is, surprisingly, instagram. I only follow my friends, and I do miss
all the "microinteractions" we had.
So far I've been reading more. And by that I don't mean my classic- rading manga on the bus- but real books. I started The Dark Fields by Alan Glynn.
21-OCT-24
I hate to fail so quickly. It's been over a month since I last touched CS50p. Covid hit me like a runaway train and I just could not
focus on anything at the end of September.
Then my masters classes started and I got so busy with school, work, and schoolwork that I just could not continue. The only way
I got time to update this site is because I'm skipping classes right now. It sucks- I'm unhappy and always tired. I really don't know
what to do, and I'm trying my best not to cry in the library right now. I feel overwhelmed all the time. I get up before dawn and return
home only after dusk. I don't even have time for gaming, but to be fair, I don't really remember when was the last time I enjoyed it.
I don't want to make my situation look so sad, but there's not much I can do about it right now.
The only way out is through.
9-OCT-2024
To whoever took down the internet archive:
Fuck you.
Sincerely,
Everybody
15-SEP-24
I continued CS50p, but I only did one lecture today, my head hurts and I want to sleep. I'm still not as healthy as I would like to be.
While I have not done much today, I still showed up. Right now it is mostly about building the habit of studying almost every day.
14-SEP-24
I started the OSSU Computer science course. I initially wanted to skip the CS50P bit, but I skimmed
through the materials and decided I should just burn through it. I'm still fighting covid so today I
just finished the first video and the problem set.
Truth be told, the siley faces problem took me embarrassingly long time to complete. I'm rusty.
It kinda sucks being at the start again. I've done similar tutorials countless times. I never sticked
through to the end. Hopefully this time is gonna be different.
13-SEP-24
Still recovering from covid. Building up this website is the best I can do at the moment.
I also spent some time toying with linux. Absolutely messed up my Fedora installation, decided
to move to NixOs, got too overwhelmed and came back to Fedora. At least I finally managed to
get Hyprland to work.